The Mind of a Lunatic

Focusing on one particular thing at a time takes a great deal of control for me. Take right now, for example. I am sitting in College following my course. I've only been here for half an hour and already I'm bored. I think it's regularity that bores me. I crave excitement. I hope that something will go horribly wrong at any moment so that it will brighten up my day. Maybe a masked group of terrorists will swing in through the windows on fast ropes and take us all hostage. Maybe the woman sitting next to me with the scruffy face will suddenly leap up and try and attack me. Maybe the PC I'm sitting at will spontaenously combust right in front of me and I will be blown halfway across the room. I want all the answers now. I don't want to wait and sit and learn. I want to be on top of the pile again. Being down here really sucks. Are people looking at me and laughing, or are they too busy with their lives to even notice that things have changed for me. Do I really care what other people think? Well of course I do. Is what they think more important than how I feel about myself? Absolutely not. The most important thing for me is me. So in which case, stop writing into your blog and get on with some work!